there should be a support group for the engaged -

Seriously!

The full ramifications of everything that needs to be done still has hit me with full force in the past two weeks, and I started having mini-anxiety attacks.  

One of the problems is I don’t handle huge events very well.  The millions of little details stress me out.  If I were managing a team, it’d be fine.  But it’s the thought that there are all these hundreds of things that I have to do, it starts to feel paralyzing.  I don’t handle that very well.   I’m not a details person, I’m a big picture person.   And there are SOO many of these things to be done, it just seems completely overwhelming!

So I had to talk to Sam and tell him that I really needed his help a lot more.  I’m sure every couple goes through something like this.  I was trying to do way too much and loosing my mind.  I had to ask Sam if he could take some of the load off, and do specific tasks.   At least knowing that I don’t have to do everything myself is comforting.  And knowing that we will meet to regularly discuss what needs to be done, and what we’ve done so far, is really helpful.

Here are my latest “oh good grief” items:
I have no idea how to get the boutonnieres taken care of.  The scary thing is, that I can now spell that word.  I need some kind of an inexpensive option for this.  I’m not totally sure where to look or how to start.

I need to find a way to decorate things and stay in budget.  At least i’m starting to have an idea.   I know I need to find a place where I can rent candelabra things for really cheap.  I found LOONG taper candles at Ikea for a very inexpensive price.  And they are pretty  AND I figured out what to do with a pumpkin!!! I’ll post a picture soon! =)

I need my dress to get underway, it makes me a bit nervous that it hasn’t started coming into being yet.  Tomorrow, if all goes well, LQ and I are supposed to go fabric shopping.   I hope we can get a good deal!

It would be really great if Sam could land a job for Fall.  That would take so much pressure off of us financially!  Please say a prayer that something happens on that front, it would really be most helpful.   

But on the other hand, I do have some “crossed it off my list” items – yay!

Wedding Cake – Almost done, we just need to get them a deposit!
By the way, the cake place was the run by the cutest people in the whole world! I highly recommend them if you happen to want a cake that looks like a rocket ship, or a car, or something fun like that.  I swear, they were just the most fun ever – and the cake was super delicious as well. =)  Cakes by the Pound, Alhambra.

My ShadowBoxes are very close to done.

Oh, I guess that’s it.  But, hopefully more “crossed off the list” items will happen soon! =)

Hopefully I will start to handle things a bit better too.  I was way too stressed out there for a while!!
**sigh**

Until next time,
Karyn.